"OMG. Today is a GREAT day!"
So says my Aunt's FaceBook status.
She is up visiting my cousin.
Immediately my heart sinks.
My guess is that the cousin, who is like a twin to me (only a few days apart and we grew up in the same neighborhood), is pregnant.
And the truth is, that if she is indeed pregnant, I am ecstatic for her.
But mentally, I go through a list of comparisons:
I've been married 6 1/2 years. This fall she celebrates her 2nd anniversary.
I've been trying for 6 years. I don't think they had to "try."
I live in a house with a nursery. They live in a tiny apartment.
Mostly I'd just be really jealous. And I'm still happy for her.
There is no reason she should not have a child.
I just don't think there are reasons (aside from medical complications) for me to not have a child too!
Maybe I'm just sensitive because I spent four hours at a baby shower today. (For someone else who I am ecstatic for).
Cycle 2. Day 24.
