Left Ovary has left the building. 2-12

Cycle 2. Day 12.

I went in today to have my follicles measured; see the progress from my second cycle.

And nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

Apparently the left ovary has decided not to attend the party the clomid is having.

Mood swings, cramps, and hot-flashes... all for nothing.

I held it together with my doctor and her staff. Then as soon as I hit the door I called my husband sobbing. Okay... so I was preparing myself for another cycle where potentially I would not get pregnant. I WAS NOT prepared for a cycle where my body didn't respond even in the slightest. 

I've been drinking the tea that taste like bark that is supposed to make the ovaries that much more productive. I'd gone in for rounds of acupuncture. I've been taking my medicine religiously. I had even peed on a stick that said I was ovulating!!! And.... nope. The left ovary just doesn't produce. 

So from that, the doctor told me that possibly my left ovary does not function. If that is the case than apparently every other month I don't have a shot (since ovaries take turns being dutiful)

Im giving myself a few hours to cry about it. Then its time to order the next 10 days of progesterone and reaffirm positive beliefs that I will become pregnant.

*Written August 2014

Mathematical sex disaster. 4-11

We are on our 4th cycle... and we finally hit that point that all (in)fertile couples dread...
Where the sex is anything but romantic.
Instead it is like a math equation.

I bought Pre-Seed lubrication.
My husband ordered a wedge to tilt my hips up. He accidentally bought a huge wedge platform - which will definitely help with gravity but by golly it is less than sexy trying to get up on that thing.

Let me tell you... I did not look like that. 

The Pre-Seed required direction reading. And since I hadn't read the directions ahead of time, I was trying to use the application in the bedroom ... and then wait the directed 15 minutes... 

The wedge required some contortionism and getting used to.

I think they will both be phenomenal next try. But man, that first round... disaster. We ended up just stopping and not having sex. On a night where mathematically we needed to have sex.

But we promised each other to NOT make our sex mathematical. So we stopped. Decided that was not a sexy practice attempt.

Ovulation Predictor Kits are saying I'm not ovulating anyway.

(After OPK giving me a positive during cycles where no ovulation occurred... I use 2-3 tests a day)

So hopefully we didn't miss a peak window. 

Cycle 4. Day 11.